I have no words that I can write to express myself today yet I have so much I wish to say.
I write this, overwhelmed by grief and fear, tears stinging my eyes, running down my face, leaving salty streaks upon my cheeks. I see the message to "fight back" on Twitter. I see calls to stand strong...
But how can I tonight?
How can I stand strong when I just learned the truth about the amount of hatred in my country? How can I when all of my beliefs have just been uprooted, violently? How can I as I mourn, doubled over in the physical pain that is wracking my body?
How can I stand strong when my hope and my belief have just been bashed to the ground by a drought of harsh reality?
How do you move on from fear?
How do you keep your faith in the basic decency of humanity when faced with the amount of hatred, despair, and judgement that led to Donald Trump becoming the next president of the United States, a country whose Pledge ends with "with liberty and justice for all"?
Tonight there was no justice. There was only fear.
Perhaps tomorrow there will be strength. Perhaps tomorrow there will be hope. Perhaps tomorrow there will be love.
Tonight there is only sorrow. Tonight there is despair. Tonight I have no words and no strength. Tonight I grieve.
Tomorrow is another day. We just might survive it.